This is…weird.

I have always been very open about my ongoing battle with anxiety/depression/mom guilt. I believe that it makes ME more relatable and human because everyone goes through tough times.

Today however… I am actually feeling good. I witnessed my best friend get engaged, finally got a chance to actually go out and enjoy dinner with family and friends, I bought a sexy new bra and panty set, had a VERY open and honest conversation with my boyfriend about our faith and our future, JOE BIDEN and KAMALA HARRIS won the election…right at this moment on Monday, November 9, 2020 at 5:06 pm I have no complaints.

((KNOCK ON WOOD))

I was talking to my boyfriend about the fact that I haven’t posted in a month, and he reminded me that it’s okay to post the joyous occasions too. I haven’t really felt inspired but I also haven’t sat down to see what thoughts flow out of me either; so here I am.

I feel like this is the opposite of what social media is known to be. Normally people run to show the good things happening in their lives and hide the bad parts. I aspire to show everything. I want to be that relatable friend in your head type of person. I’m not perfect and I never will be.

I’m in a good place though. I feel hopeful about my future and my family. I have truly been blessed.

Now I’m not saying everything is perfect, I could always use a couple hundred thousand in the bank 😂, but I am content. I had been feeling super unsettled and anxious at the beginning of October, but through good conversation with my best friend, prayer, time alone to think, and open conversation with my guy, everything is back to normal.

If you are feeling down, uncertain or overwhelmed, I suggest taking a day to focus completely on you. I dropped my daughter off with my parents and did exactly that. I always try to stress the importance of having me-time, but I don’t typically make it happen. I reached a point where I knew that was my only option and I did it….and it helped.

This blog entry is about nothing other than me sharing my happiness with whoever might be reading this.

If you are struggling, take some time to write down some things that you are grateful for. If you’re alive to read this, you’re already doing better than most! Focus on what you can control, talk to someone who supports you or maybe even put on some lingerie and drink a glass of wine.

There’s only one you. We only get one chance at life here on earth. Enjoy it. Feel every second of it. Make it count.