Today Was Not a Good Day

Today, June 24, 2026, my family and I found out that my mom has cancer.

Pancreatic cancer that spread to both lungs and liver to be exact.

It’s been a ROUGH day.

My dad called my husband to come to my job to sit with me while I found out.

If you’ve been here for a while, I never had a great relationship with my mom. I went to therapy and was able to forgive her for a lot of what she put my family through when we were younger, but we’ve never been close.

I also know Jesus now…and He said we have to forgive if we want our Father in heaven to forgive us. So…it was a work in progress but I finally got there.

Seeing her lay in the hospital bed all emaciated and tired truly hurt my heart.

As I type this, my eyes are sore and I have a massive headache from crying all day.

I know she’s scared. She’s just a girl after all.

Both of her parents are gone, she’s lost a very close sister, and many other relatives in what seems like a relatively short time.

We know that this life is temporary…I hate that she’s been in pain for so long…and she’s been in pain for a LONG time. The doctors always gave her more pain meds and sent her home…none of us would have guessed it was cancer.

And the way that the doctor delivered the news made me feel like it was terminal…but that he didn’t want to say that part out loud.

Jesus…I know that You are in control. Please watch over my mom and, if it’s in Your will, heal her. Please keep your hands on her and on my poor Dad as well. I know that You can do miraculous things, and heal people from the tops of their heads to the bottom of their feet. Please, remove the cancer and make her new.

Amen.