Rut
I’ve worked my entire adult life since 22 when I had my daughter, mostly in the same field…and as of this week…I’m in a rut.
You know how God gives everyone gifts…I know mine are the gifts of mercy and encouragement. I have used them to my best ability in each role I’ve ever had, which is why everyone sees me as the “glue” for every team I’ve ever been on. I tend to bring people together and make them feel seen. I have just been feeling like there has to be more. There has to be something else that I was put on this earth to do. I feel like I need to use these gifts to bring glory to God, but…I’m at a loss.
Pastor Mitchell said that we are supposed to be the light at work, we are supposed to pray for our coworkers and bring the glory to God at work…and I do talk about how good He is whenever I get the chance, but this isn’t exactly a field where I can JUST do that all the time.
Proverbs 16:3 says
3 Commit to the Lord whatever you do,
and he will establish your plans.
I pray every single day. I have asked God to show me my gifts and how I am supposed to use them. I know that He put me in this position for a reason, but it’s been hard to stay here until I know I’ve done everything I am supposed to do.
Truth be told, if I could, I’d sell all my stuff, buy an RV and just travel with my family. Clocking in, and clocking out, and dealing with workplace politics is so draining.
He has always taken care of my family and I, and I trust that He will continue. I am just struggling with understanding…even though I know the Bible says:
Proverbs 3:5-8
5 Trust the Lord completely, and don’t depend on your own knowledge. 6 With every step you take, think about what he wants, and he will help you go the right way. 7 Don’t trust in your own wisdom, but fear and respect the Lord and stay away from evil. 8 If you do this, it will be like a refreshing drink and medicine for your body.
Isn’t it DIVINE how He knew these things way before our time?! It’s literally all right there. I read it and I know in my heart that it’s true, I just have a hard time making my brain relax and know it too.
I pray for guidance and wisdom. Lord, please hear my prayer.
Amen.